So I’m sitting here first thing in the morning, waiting for one of my housemates to get out of the shower so I can get in and get ready for work, and I find myself wondering what I’m doing …

It’s not often I wake up already trapped in the midst of a nearly full-blown anxiety attack. I’m sitting here with waves of near-panic passing over me, and it’s all I can do to not just crawl back into bed and pull the covers up over my head.

I’m not even sure what the trigger was this morning; I just felt it coming on.

So … now, a shower. A long hot shower, and breathing deeply, trying to relax. I think it’s time to start focusing on some of the basics of either sitting or standing meditation; to be able to calm myself down, to let myself go blank, before the fear and anxiety has a chance to latch on.