Apartment hunting sucks. I am not ready to do this … but I’ve got to let go and quit hanging on … because the longer I hang on, the more we both end up hurting, and the more likely it is that we’ll end up hating each other.

But this really sucks.

Marriage is supposed to be forever, but I’ve never let myself really be a part of it, and I know I’ve hurt the most important person in my life … I am completely overwhelmed with guilt.