So the past couple of weeks, I’ve been interviewing for a job in New York … this past Monday, I was made an offer. Unfortunately, I had to turn down the offer because it didn’t make financial sense … with no relocation package and only a 15% raise (compared to to the 80% increase on cost-of-living between Salt Lake and White Plains), I simply cannot afford to accept the job.

But that’s not the big move. The big move is that I actually got an offer, countered, and entered negotiations. My usual tactic would be to somehow self-sabotage myself during the interview process so that the offer never even came.

I have fears, but I’m not sure if it’s of failure or success, so I tend to subconciously do something to ensure that I don’t have to make a decision … in this case, I wanted the job, they wanted me, and it was truly simply a matter of money.

I feel validated and encouraged … I feel like I’ve made a big step forward in self-growth and understanding. Now, I need to keep the momentum going …